Sophie’s First Christmas

Hello Christmas!
Hello Christmas!

*sob* Sophie had her very first Christmas. She spent all of it grizzling because she is teething like crazy right now. We decided that as she is only 5 months old, we were not going to spoil her with gifts and we asked all the family to buy clothes instead of toys as those were needed!

She got:

  • Teething keys (Mummy & Daddy)
  • Twisty rattle (Mummy & Daddy)
  • Baby ball pit and balls (Mummy & Daddy)
  • Denim dress and green top (Uncle G)
  • Pink dress and tights (Nanny C)
  • 7 in 1 baby wear set (Grampy J)
  • Ceramic piggy bank (Great Nanny E)
  • Baby’s 1st Xmas teddy (Grampy J)
  • Rudolph teddy (Grampy J)
  • Walk along caterpillar (Nanny H)
  • Playmat (Great Nanny S)
  • Talking teddy (Nanny H)

I have a very spoiled little monkey. Not so shocking that the only people not to stick to the ‘no toys’ rule was the in laws. TUT. However, we loved all the clothes that were bought for her and she only helped to open one because she slept through all the present opening!!

Sophie had a munch of some carrots through her solid net and we did use her new highchair as well, but she was so dinky in it we had to pad her out with blankets and sheets just so she would sit up.

Christmas Eve
Christmas Eve

When we got back home, we were shattered. Five days in London is so scary! When you spend most of your days in a little bubble of 3, being in a huge group can be so overwhelming. I mean, I know I grew up in it, but it’s definitely different when you haven’t been in it a while!

Sophie loved all the attention she got. Next year we’re going to have our own special Christmas as she will be 17 months old – Father Christmas will be coming to my house!!!!


Rest In Peace Little Angels

This week children all over the world will be breaking up from school for the holidays. They will be writing Christmas cards and excitedly opening the last 7 days on their Advent calendars. If it’s snowing, then sledding down hills and building snowmen will be happening now. Parents will be buying the last Christmas bits and secretly wrapping presents and hiding them away.

For 18 children and their families, and 6 adults and their families, this will not be the case. Those families will be looking at their lovely Christmas trees and the unopened presents and the empty stockings feeling devastated. Shocked. Sad. I don’t even know what words I can use to describe how those parents will be feeling right now.

On 14th December 2012, Adam Lanza walked into Sandy Hook Elementary in Connecticut and shot 12 little girls aged 5-7 years old, and 8 little boys of the same age. He also shot and killed six other adults including Victoria Soto, who threw herself in front of the children in her care and was shot to death.

Just some of the beautiful children
Just some of the beautiful children

These children, these beautiful angels went to school excited about making gingerbread houses and the coming weekend. Instead they had their lives, so full of promise snatched from them in the most brutal of manners. As a mother, seeing this unfold on the news was heart wrenching and I was in tears. The thing here is not just the poor children who lost their lives – the other kids who heard everything happen will carry this with them for the rest of their lives. They will freak out at car backfires and loud bangs and anything that would sound like a gun shot. They will have nightmares and miss their friends. In such a close neighbourhood this hasn’t just affected those who died but their families, friends, neighbours, public servants and the entire world who watched this on the news.

Right now, people in the USA are screaming at Obama for harsher gun control and making guns illegal and all sorts of ridiculous notions. I am not a fan of guns. I can’t even drink water without spilling it. However, guns do not kill people – people kill people. If someone wants to go out and commit the senseless act of murder, they will do it whether they use knives, guns, bats or plastic forks. The fact that he used a gun is not the point here. The point is why he did this at all – and we will never know because he went and shot himself like the coward he is!

I am now anticipating the fact that the media will pin this whole sad and devastating event on ‘mental issues’. I realise that anyone who has the capacity to kill innocent little children is a psycho, but they mean to blame his ‘autism’. I have a very intolerant view on this. Adam Lanza got up that morning and shot his mother in the face before stealing her gun. He then went to Sandy Hook school dressed in a bulletproof vest, shot his way in and killed as many as he could until he heard sirens – he then killed himself. By putting on a bulletproof vest and loading up with more than one weapon and over 100 rounds of ammunition he had every intention of murder and it was a planned act. This cannot be blamed on anything close to ‘diminished responsibility’. The trouble is no one will understand the motive behind it because he took the cowards way out and committed suicide.


Instead of a happy and exciting Christmas morning next week, every single affected family will be burying their children and mourning the day they should have had. They will be questioning what they could have done differently. The answer to that is nothing. They did nothing wrong. Adam Lanza did this to them – and he will be remembered as the man who killed angels. We should not allow him to be remembered but remember every single soul he took that day. We should remember all the names of  the Sandy Hook victims. We should remember them.